Update on My Crazy Life

Would you agree that sometimes life is crazy, fun and addicting?

I've had this terrible accident last Friday, I think I blogged about it already, but until now the wound is still in the process of healing, good thing my ring finger is no longer swelling and it doesn't hurt that much anymore.

My sister failed the nursing board exam, she took it months back and we all waited for this moment, but she failed. I'm gonna be honest about it, I cried. My family's not the rich type and we've all struggled so she could finish this course, I know she tried everything she can but still failed. Maybe it's not yet her time.

Mom is really depressed, so is my sister, she barely spoke to me when I called her. I brought her here last Sunday to console her broken heart, gave her all the encouragement she would need for the next battle on November. Told her to find a job while doing a self review, I know it's gonna be a tough fight but life isn't about being too comfortable. We brought her back home yesterday, knowing the battle plan isn't gonna be easy but happy because she knows that I'm always here to support her. I also told her to temporarily stop her hobby in photography and anime, she has all the time in the world after the next board exam. She needs to focus this time.

Last Tuesday, still part of the plan to console her and to get off the daily routine, we went to La Mesa Ecopark with her bf Carlo. It was a crazy ride not entirely knowing where to go. I only knew how to reach Novaliches but after that I'll be damned lost. So, the ride went smoothly until we reached Novaliches except for some car related problems which Jeff took care of.

We got lost approximately 10 times before getting to SM Fairview supposedly in time for lunch. We had troubles finding our way out the subdivision which is supposedly the short cut going to SM. 20 pesos left our pocket just so we could go back to the real non-mountain like road. After a hefty meal and some groceries we purchased for our supposed picnic we then tried to look for La Mesa Ecopark, voila, we got lost again, we even reached the far end of Kaybiga Caloocan, which is really far from Ecopark.

After a good 30 minutes we reached La Mesa Ecopark and it wasn't that fascinating, it's just like going to the province with all those trees and couples getting their prenup pics all over the place. We rested inside the bamboo house if I can call it that. When my sister and her bf got back from viewing the dam, we decided to go home.

The drive home is pretty okay, or so I thought, when this traffic guy in yellow hunt us down because of this crazy coding system (yes, coding kami that time, lakasan lang ng loob yan). This traffic guy took Jeff's license and took a really good luck at him, he said that he's probably his relative even showing the guy's name from his cellphone. Yes, he let us walk away just like that, he didn't even took Jeff's P100 offering.

After reaching Malinta Exit, I finally gave Jeff the freedom to use NLEX instead of going through the hassle and traffic of Mc Arthur's Highway. Jeff thought it was the best experience of the day, I loved it too. In fact, we're planning on going back to NLEX pretty soon.

One more update, my boss, finally gave me the afternoon shift. After nearly 2 months of working my ass off on the night shift they probably noticed that I was so getting stressed out. Now, I'll be staying in the lax shift for the next three weeks. I'm so happy because I'm able to sleep more than 8 hours a day now.

So sorry for the very long post, so many things happened that I wasn't able to blog about, I hope you didn't get tired reading it. So here, life for me is fun, crazy and addictive, these experiences make the ride really to die for.

SoundSkool

I woke up today with so many things to do, then I checked my email just now while working, and guess what, I got an email from Nescafe. Wondering what could it be and why I'm in their email list, I checked out the link they gave me, until I saw this video from their site. Pretty cool and crazy... Really made my day.

The Sneezing Baby Panda

I found this post in facebook and despite of me crying all day because of a cut on my finger, this really made me laugh so much, it made my day.

Walking Disaster

I'm now officially a walking disaster, I just murdered my left hand's ring finger using the plastic blades of our owner type jeep's fan. I first thought it was nothing until I saw so much blood coming of it, I was literally shocked and all I did was sob. Jeff was driving that time and I didn't want him to panic, so I took every courage I had to show him that I'll be fine and kept reminding him to just go on with his driving and I'll take care of it when we get home.

It just hit me, we've been in Bulacan for four months and I never miss a month that I'm not sick or I get into an accident. I can't imagine what disaster I'll be in next month.

Reasons Why I Miss Pasig City

5 Reasons why I miss Pasig City.

1. Very accessible to everything, malls, churches, market, 24hour fast food, 24hour Mercury Drugs, accessible rides (jeep and trycicle), 24hour lugawan in Jenny's (love their lugaw).

2. Near Eastwood, near Metrowalk, near Serendra.

3. I love the people, especially the vicinity where we used to live, they are so helpful, in fact, those living in shanties are more helpful than your rich neighbors. I miss the noise and the polution.

4. I miss not worrying about what to eat because there are food stalls every where I go, everytime I want to eat, whatever I want to eat.

5. Living in Pasig City is like living in Bronx (though I've never been there). You're just few minutes (?) away from New York. It's like living in the real world.

Oh... I dearly miss the Pasig City I love, I wonder why I ever ran away from your loving arms. Maybe someday, I'll try to go back, we'll never know.

Life Update

I'm neither loving or hating my life today.

I opened my eyes today with a wish that my buyer would reactivate his Odesk account, I was deeply praying for it because I know our finances will be deeply affected by a sudden change. It's a weekend and the chances are pretty slim, but I still prayed and hoped.

I still decided not to make amends with Jeff, I don't think I can handle that now. I only got one rule, please please don't do things that will irritate me and you'll see who I really am when I'm angry.

I plurked today and I hope my karma would go up up and away... Oh for the sake of karma. I getting tired of this..

I'm still not satisfied with our househelp's performance, maybe I should teach her my cleaning style tomorrow. I got nothing to do anyway. One more thing, I'm beginning to hate her adobo, a week will not pass without her cooking adobo atleast twice.

I'm about to let go a client, this Magento guy got into my nerves the other day. I know I need the money badly but I won't let this guy get into my nerves again, he's a walking stress for me.

I'm currently listening to Magic 89.9's radio portal, their songs relaxed me a bit, reminds me of early years. Hhhhmmm.. my prime years. Loved it, no regrets.

I just browsed Mama Sacha's facebook profile, finally after ten thousand years she approved my request. Well, I think she forgot her password that's why she can't log in for weeks now.

I'm still taking cetrizine daily before I sleep, trust me, it's making me cranky and unproductive. I'm just gonna let 6 more days pass then I'm hoping to be back to my old self without medication.

I miss my old self, my happy go lucky times when I didn't think about the future and just let my day pass without worrying anything. Now that I'm married, though without a child yet, I feel that I have more responsibility and that I have to work twice as much as I used to.

I mentioned to a friend today, life depends on your daily decision, if you fail to make the right one, there's a consequence bonus to that. I guess there was a day when I made the wrong one and karma is just trying to even out and decided that today's D' Day.

Sometimes life really sucks. This is one of the moment when life really sucks, and I do too.

Reflection and Rant (together in one)

I ended my yesterday earlier today (hhmm..), around 6AM when I ended my shift and drank a cetrizine, which the doctor required me to take right before bedtime. He said that though my ear infection is gone, he still cannot flush my ears due to the holes he found in them. Also my right ear is still extracting some liquid which I don't know what.

Anyway, due to cetrizine and my 3-hour sleep yesterday I immediately dozed off and slept like I've never slept before. I woke up around 11 AM, realizing that I missed the supposed chat with my newly acquired client at 9 AM, good thing he was still around when I went online. Until around noon we started talking about the task I just did last night. He thought it was okay, apparently he's asking to do a remote session, for some reason I didn't ask what for. So, while talking via skype he then said that I should do the task while we're on remote session on my PC and while talking via skype. Isn't that irritating? His job is not as hard as hell and I believe I can do it without him ranting and instructing me what to do.

After sometime of trying to work it out, uploading pictures in Magento encountered some error, I thank thee Magento for the glitch because I really had to eat lunch, for pete's sake it was past one already. He even blamed my PC for it, I don't mind, I just had to eat and stop the non-sense he's asking me to do. After he let go of me I immediately closed the session and ended the call, it was the most irritating work experience I've encountered, one of the reasons why I've decided to work from home is to get away from nosy bosses, but this client of mine is no exception. That's what the Odesk screen shot is for, so the clients can check if their providers are doing exactly they require.

During lunch time I took time to reflect what had just happened, he just said that the first sample jobs I did was fine enough and there's no other problem with it. So, why in the world would he watch my screen while we talk on skype and be on a scheduled job where it's just data entry, it's not even a VA task. I even asked my husband's opinion about it, mentioning that although what he did was it's still a job and we need it badly, but come to think of the situation, here I am working my ass off day and night, and yet this guy, out of no where would hire me but comes out as an irritant. It would definitely salvage whatever anti stress spells I have left.

Upon coming back from lunch I just told him I'll troubleshoot my PC and find out why Magento isn't taking any pics, but at the back of my mind I have a plan.

I slept for another 5 hours, again probably because of cetrizine, and when I woke up, I immediately wrote a letter to him, telling him that I didn't like what just happened and it's not my working style. Had I known that he'll watch my screen while I do his task I wouldn't have let him take control. It's up to him if he's still interested with my services, not to be proud of my skills, but I'm just one of the few who knows how to configure Magento and if he's not willing to compromise then I can let him go.

Hopefully God will bring back my old client Richard, he's the best there is. So, tonight I'll have to settle to my underpaid and over worked self.

Hole in Wall

I went to the doctor this morning according to my scheduled appointment, he checked my ears again and I was so relieved to find out that the swelling is almost gone. There are still few pain once in a while and some colorless liquid coming out of my right ear but other than that I feel better than last week.

I mentioned to him that I've been having painful reaction towards the liquid medicine (I forgot the name) that I put in my ears, that happened when the swelling subsided about two days ago, so I told him I stopped using that liquid drops. The pain will only go away after an hour and I promise you it's worse than a toothache.

Upon hearing this, he checked my ears and found out that there's a hole on each ear. On the left ear he found a hole which is around 20% of the size of the ear drum, the right ear has about 5% of the size of the ear drum. That explains why every time I put the drops it gives me one hell of a pain. So, upon learning this, the doctor could not flush out my ears just yet and I'll have to wait until my ears recovers from these laceration.

Also, he noticed that these holes were not from massive cleaning and it was in fact due to the infection from God knows where. So, I guess it wasn't my fault at all. He said that I stop taking the heavily dosed medicine he gave me a week ago and just concentrate on healing my ears and stopping the infection full time. He gave me another medication which I'll take for the next ten days before bed time. I'm thinking this will really doze me off so I'll better take this before I sleep this morning.

Then I'll see my doctor again next month, however, it things get worse then I'll go back even before the one month period. I wasn't allowed to swim, I'm so sad by this, if I would then I'd have to wear something to cover my ears, but I'm so afraid it'll just worsen the case, so I'd just skip swimming for the next month.

So, I'm hoping that these ears will heal soon and I mean soon.

Level 27 on RC!

After several months of pondering whether I should try out facebook or not I finally gave in not because my friends use it but because of the feedback I get from Restaurant City. So, last May I tried working out my restaurant, patiently waiting for my cook to get energized, trying to trade ingredients to my friends, well, most of them I don't know personally.

Now, I've reached level 27, and I've decorated it the way I imagined how my own resto should look like. So, let me give you a glimpse of Kikos Lubak Aia, where we serve fine dining food to our hungry customers. Try out our Sensational Lamb Skewers, Gourmet Lobsters and Sensational Pumpkin Pie.

Super Unexplainable Day

This blog is created as my own personal diary, where I can share my thoughts and experiences for an extra ordinary day, to separate a quite boring life and my uber active lifestyle.

I don't have the energy to fully explain what had transpired during the day as I only got 3 hours of sleep this morning after my night shift, I'm supposed to be sleeping but these problems kept me awake and come 10PM I'll be awake for the next 8 hours. That's 21 hours straight.

I've had so many rants last June and the early part of July, now, instead of ranting let me pray to God to give me the peace of mind I've been wanting to have, the patience and the perseverance to succeed. Please take care of my family, especially my parents' health.

Also, please do guide me and Jeff in our daily decisions. I guess that would be enough for today, tomorrow is a new day and I'm hoping to recover from my ear infection soon.

Take care guys.

I'm Being Taken for Granted

Do you sometimes feel like you're being taken for granted when you don't speak up?

I now feel that I'm being taken for granted. Since I've had this ear infection I decided to keep my mouth shut because it irritates me when it hurts when I talk. I think you're all aware that the ear muscles are somehow interconnected to the jaw, thus with ear infection, I'm having a hard time chewing and talking, things I love to do.

I wanted to rant about my current boss, my task is pretty simple, wait for a customer to request for a chat, support them with whatever their concern is about then end the chat when it's resolved, isn't that easy? I thought so too. Until I got to meet the other co-employee they hired a week after they hired me. They said this girl will take the afternoon shift just before I log in, originally, this shift belonged to my hubby, or that's just what my other boss had been telling me, apparently he's not always available whenever their supposed training is about to start, this irritates me too.

Then another irritation came when during the interview process they told me that we will have to do this outside of Odesk because they're not yet aware how Odesk works, but just today, I checked that they have been registered in Odesk since 2007. For the first week I didn't tell them that I have an ear infection on my left ear, my bad, apparently this other boss of mine wants to have a skype chitchat before I start working, so I'm forced to use the CDRKing headset, which is really tight. Until the latter part of my first week I had to decline talking to him and just use speakers, I let him do the talking, and I told him about my two ears being infected.

Going back to my first rant, apparently, they introduced her to me last Wednesday, I think she's nice but not too friendly, I don't care anyway. Then hours after that meeting I decided to check out Odesk for other job offers just to update myself on what's new in the job market, and I saw her name, applying for a job, so I took the chance and browsed through her profile until I saw that she was infact hired through Odesk and guess what, her pay is more than double than what I'm supposed to have, well isn't it fun?. At first I was hoping that it's not really her and that I'm mistaken her for another Odesker, until I confirmed it straight from her the next day.

Actually, I have no issues about my salary, I mean this is what I think is reasonable for someone who's just starting in their company, but my point is, if they are able to offer bigger pay and they think I deserve it, why would they let me settle for less? Come to think of it, this girl is in the afternoon shift and I work my ass off in the night shift. It's just so odd that my boss keeps complementing me on how fast I got the work flow and still hired someone else with higher rate and let me suffer in the night shift. Arggghhhhh..

One thing more, yesterday was my second week and supposedly my payday, which they promised when they hired me. I was about to discuss it with them but the other boss logged in just to give me my passcode for the night. I also messaged my boss about my pay, only, he answered when I was already sleeping, and the irritating part is I gave him my payment method just right after I was hired, when he replied, he was asking for it again. The entire day I was waiting for them to log in, missing out few hours of sleep, heck, I need my hard earned money, two weeks in the night shift is no joke.

I was even tempted to just log out last night because of the revelations that struck me, however, I still want to give the benefit of the doubt, but where are they right now? I even spoke to the girl they hired and she said my boss logged in but went off right away and the other boss didn't log in at all. So, there.. I'm now officially being taken for granted for being so nice and polite.

To end that first part, let me talk to you about the second rant, this is about the househelp we just hired, she was very nice and so hardworking at first but lately I've been noticing that she no longer pull her ass to work and do the cleaning. I don't really tell her what to do because I think she's an intelligent househelp, or that's what she's been portraying to be and I expect that she'd do things without us telling her. I told her many times to tie the trashliner because my little pup would eat garbage when he smells it. But for some irritating reason, she would not listen. Now, there are garbages in the lavatory and in the garden as well. I'm beginning to hate her. I just cannot force myself to speak to her because of my current condition. I don't want to add more stress to what I'm feeling now.

These people would really see who I am when I'm angry and I'm not gonna let them do these things to me just because I don't speak up.

Magic 89.9 Reminiscing

It's been more than a decade since I became addicted to Magic 89.9 (radio station), it was my summer vacation from my first year in college and I had nothing to do at home so decided to tune in to Magic.

I was a fan of Cadillac Jack (DJ) whose shift starts at 9PM and ends at 12MN. Aside from the usual music he plays during the night there were topics where we can share our two cents and this is where I would usually call and share my rants and raves.

Also, aside from tuning in to CJ (this is what I call him) I also make it a point to join different contests, where I won several tickets to movies and even a trip for two to a beach resort in Batangas (I forgot the name), since the only mode of communication back then is the telephone I'd usually keep our landline in my room so I could call them anytime there's a contest.

It was a great experience knowing the DJs of Magic, aside from CJ I've also met a few that I became friends with. Apparently I became so busy with school and new friends that somehow I lost touch with my Magic friends but I still make it a point to listen to them once in a while.

Now that I'm working from home and usually left here in the office without TV or radio every night (I work on a night shift), I decided to check out Magic's site and alas I found out that they already have their own radio portal, just click this link to listen live. I guess this is their way to reach other Magic listeners all over the globe. Enjoy.

Welcome Home MJ

MJ who? That's our new baby, our very own ride. I know I know she's just a second hand owner type jeep, but still, she's our very own first ride. She's one of the dearest possession we have right now and we promise to take care of her, very well.

We got her through Jeff's cousin who knew someone selling it. Since they're pretty much friends, the owner decided to give the jeep to us, though it's just 1/3 of the way of being paid. We bought her battery and gas and we're just trying to fix the documents, come Monday, it'll be registered to Jeff's name.

We already tried it yesterday, he drove me to the clubhouse to pay our water bill and the monthly home owner's dues. Though I know Jeff is still nervous about driving, heck, this is his time to shine and practice really well in driving, who knows we might be able to go to Baclaran come August or September.

Anyway, here are some of his pictures with MJ, by the way, we named her MJ to remember the Michael Jackson's death, same day we got MJ.

Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen

We went to MOA earlier today to watch Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen through IMAX. It was uber expensive for P400, I'm not really used to paying that much for movies.

Anyway, the theater was great, they offered 2D (wide screen) of the film and it was well worth it. I find the movie overflowing with new characters and still great moves from the autobots.

We were nearly late because the movie starts at 10:15AM and we got there 10:12AM. Only 3 minutes to purchase our tickets, but the queue lasted longer than they expected so they had to adjust the time to 10:30AM, just right on time when we reached our seats, it started to play.

It was overwhelming but I still have so many questions. Though I wouldn't want to be the spoiler here, trust me, it's worth your hard earned money.

Dance With My Father

This is somehow a late post for Father's Day last Sunday. However, I felt like I really have to.

It had been a roller coaster life with my family. There were fights between my father and mother that I wished I never witnessed, so many tears were shed when I was little, which made me stronger, apparently a heart of stone for both of them.

Slowly I realized how wonderful it is to have them both while I try to build my own family with Jeff.

Though this year was traumatic, finding out Papa's condition with his gall bladder, which was removed months ago through surgery, now, he's facing yet another problem with his kidney stones. I wish he's here so we could get him to the hospital again and be checked, I wish we could do something for him to ease his pain.

I don't want to wake up finding out we're too late in showing him how we love him and how we care for him. For Papa, I miss you so much and please have yourself checked or go home again and we'd take care of you. I love you.

Just one last thing, I saw this video on youtube and I'd like to share this with you. Happy Father's Day to all fathers in the world.

HouseHelp

Finally, after months of patiently waiting for a much needed house help, she's finally here. Thanks to my ever reliable mother in law, she got Mylene to work for us. She's from Quezon (province) and same as my age and I'm hoping things are gonna be better with her working for us. I've been having troubles with household chores since I became very busy working (from home). Now, I hope she can really do the job I'd love to do but can't afford to.

I'll start briefing her tomorrow morning. I'm crossing my fingers for a good relationship with her, see, it's my first time to ever get a house help, all of us in the family are trained to work the household chores, but with all my tasks at hand I doubt if I can still handle doing the chores. Anyway, I'd work very hard to pay for her salary.

Ungrateful - Random Rants

I was keeping my cool for a couple of days now since "the incident" happened. I don't want to go deeper and I won't name names but honestly, I'm fuming with anger as I type this blog.

First of, when a task is given to you, it means you have to work hard and be determined to prove that you're worthy of the work entrusted to you. You were given the luxury to use your cellphone in between work and maybe chat a little "while" working, all we're asking is that "you" get it done correctly.

Next, it was "you" who came to us asking for help, not the other way around and you don't even have the courtesy to thank "us" who gave you what you needed.

Then, when we tell you that you made a mistake, don't take it personally. Instead of being defensive, why not ask us what you did wrong and try to make up for it. Don't act as if it's our freaking responsibility to constantly tell you what to do when you're already trained for the task. As you have always narrated to us, you're not a f*cking kid anymore.

Our clients didn't even know that we pass our jobs to you, so it's you're responsibility to take care of it and ask us if you think you're not doing it correctly. Again, you asked for help and we gave you what you need.

When you were told that there were a lot of mistakes in the document you made, you were so all out defensive and even had the guts to shout, whoa, that's very responsible of you. I think you even heard that what you did made us lose that client and you have no remorse, you just kept chatting and doing God knows what.

Next, when you left that morning without telling us, didn't you even realize that you left the door open? Who knows what could have happened to us the time you left. That's very irresponsible of you, don't you think?

Our life is no fairytale, we work our ass off to get food to our table, to feed you during your 1 month stay, to pay the bills and get our savings back up and running again. We don't stay at home just to log in to friendster or facebook or even chat with our friends, because almost all the time, we try to keep our life afloat by getting more jobs, this is no joke.

You're not a kid anymore, you can even start a family of your own but you won't take responsibility for your own life.

Today, Jeff was there at your home and you didn't even say sorry, does the freaking word scare the hell out of you huh?

And somebody even had the guts to brand Jeff as "Engot" for giving the job to you, whoa, so, it's our fault now that we tried to trust you with our work? And you are all blaming us for helping you, wow, what an inconsiderate act.

It's so sad that the guy all of you are belittling is my husband, because it's not acceptable. You never have shown remorse, never said sorry and all. If you had been my brother and you did that to me infront of my husband I would have slapped you so hard that you'll forget where you are. I think you should be thankful Jeff is kind enough not to throw you away that night because if I were him, the minute you shouted at me would be the minute your clothes and stuff is at the garage burning.

I'll only tell you this once, I never wanted to see your freaking face ever again. Jeff could forgive you, yes, because he has a good heart but never again that you'll step into this house, you ingrate. You're the most ungrateful person I've ever met in my entire life.

Kitchen Nightmares by Gordon Ramsay

I've just recently discovered a show that brings a capital F to *uck. It's the first time I've seen this show, probably because for the past months that we moved here we don't have our own cable subscription due to village restrictions, and unfortunately we don't have P6000 to have our own satellite cable (damn those satellites).

The show is all about the reality of life when establishing your own restaurant. Aside from the normal flaw of relationships between owner and staff, this show uncovers the truth on how our succulent food is prepared. It also reflects the sad facts that restaurants are shutting down not just the general fact that their food's taste is not even close to that of McDonalds, but because of bad management from the owners.

I'm beginning to get addicted that I'm beginning to really show passion for food and how it's prepared. This show really helps a lot of hungry young businessmen with how to properly manage a good restaurant, not just managerial wise but also with the quality of food they serve.

Have a look of this video I got from youtube, this is one of my favorites.

Repost from Bang's Blog

Early today I had the urge to check my other email account and found out that Bang (a friend and a colleague from Dell) created this blog and it had my name on it, oh well, I'll repost it here.

hi-five

June 17th, 2009 by bangreyes

It just hit me last night how lucky I am that I work from home, maybe because it was raining so hard and thinking I don’t have go out and hail for a cab to go to work.As I look back to the days when I was still a corporate slave you will always hear me say..”Can I just go home and still get my pay” funny it is but who would think this would happen for me.. I guess everything starts with a dream or in my case, whining (lol).It all started last year when my teammate Joan (“jown” – hi gel!) told me what she read on a forum about a home-based work. I was skeptical at first thinking is it possible? Questions starts to rumble in my head coz I know I want it but will it be worth it? As I kept on debating with my thoughts Joan learned about the glorified job and began working with some projects. Everyday I see her come to work looking wasted but was excited of how she’s doing so far with her odd job(not so odd for me now huh).Then one day she told me she was resigning.. Inggitera that I am applied for a dsl line and baam!… Im there. I cant say I enjoy having just a few hours of sleep but I know one day everything will pay off and true enough it did I resigned a few months ago. Now, I enjoy working while I laze around my couch lol watching tv and most of all I can stop if I want to. I thank God the most for not letting cynicism ruin my dreams I thought it was all a “moo point” but now its all worth it. Whoever is interested to be part of my funky work-world (if there’s such a word) just let me know and ill help you guys out.. hi-five! tata!

for a start check out these sites…

www.odesk.com

www.getafreelancer.com

goodluck!

Another Ear Infection

I started having ear infection back in my high school days. I've got this addiction of cleaning my ear on a daily basis, whenever I get stressed or irritated I pamper myself through cleaning my ears, I dunno why. I find myself getting relaxed when I do this.

Anyway, one time when I was trying to sleep I then felt pain inside my ear on the jaw line. It was so painful that my mom had to bring me to a hospital to be checked. We found out that it's an ear infection due to massive cleaning of the inner core. It took me a good 2 weeks to finally heal and several weeks after I tried to avoid my addiction.

Back in college I've had it again, every time it happens I always get scolded by the doctor that I must not clean the inside core, and never on a daily basis. I guess I'm not over the addiction because until now, I think on a yearly basis, it still hurts. Now, I'm beginning to hate cotton buds and I'm planning to throw them all away.

When it hurts I love to pound my head on the wall just to ease the pain, sometimes I can't sleep because of it. I'm just thankful my right ear is still okay. And one more thing, the liquid that I pour on my ear, it's even painful than the pain caused by the infection.

So, I'm hoping to get rid of this infection soon, before it's too late...